Tuesday, February 14, 2012
A Fear I Have
I have known for a while, although I have thought about it more in the last few days, about I fear I have when reading the Bible. Maybe this is a weird fear that nobody else has, but it is a fear that I have: I have the fear that, through reading the Bible, that I will find something about God that I don't like or agree with. I mean, it's hard enough to read the Bible sometimes with all the genocide not only condoned by God, but ordered by Him, and to put instances such as that in the right context so as to see God in them through the right glasses. But I find myself reading the Bible apprehensively in fear that something God does or says will pop up somewhere and I won't like it or agree with it. Of course, the question lingering in my mind on top of this fear is, "If I find something about God that I don't like or agree with, then what in the world do I do?" And I know that this effects my reading - it HAS to. But I don't know how to change it. Luckily, God does.
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I think the key word here is "I"; I will find something; something I don't like; something I don't agree with. Is God, God, or not? If he is, do we have the right/privledge of imposing our value system on him? Do we know better than God? Are we smarter than God?
ReplyDeleteI promise you that when you read the Bible you will find things that you do not understand or like or whatever. Its in those things that we let God change us from our way of thinking into his way of thinking. We are the created, he is the Creator. We are the servant, he is the Master. Study the word of the Master and let it teach you how to judge right and wrong, discover real truth and let it change you. Its amazing!
Hey Alex! Thanks for all your wisdom and openness in this blog.. I agree with your mom. You WILL find things that you don't like because you WILL continue to be a sinful creature. At times, I HATE that I am called to love everyone because there are some people in my life (in everyone's lives) that are simply really, really hard to love. That's a sinful thought of mine, and sometimes, no matter how hard I try to get over it, it still remains. Think about it. There are other things I sinfully don't like, and I think if you look--especially at how God calls..commands.. Christians to live, you're going to find things that are you think are hard and hate, too.
ReplyDeleteThat being said, when I reflect on my sinfulness and areas that I especially struggle in, I'm constantly thrown to my knees and reminded of God's supreme power, knowledge, and everlasting love for me. God's Word is true.. all of it. And I'm sinful.. all the time. But because He LOVES me so much, His Son conquered my sins for me, and because of that, I'm able to read and understand His Word. I'm forgiven for hating it at times. I'm forgiven for failing to obey it all the time. And because of that beautiful grace and love, I can rejoice in His Word and realize that wrestling with obedience to His Word will be a constant struggle.